February 2010
64 posts
“This is not a joke, so please stop smiling
What was I thinking when I said it...”
– Wilco
“I cut the world in chords making melodies from words and I’m confused...”
– Zox
“You laid your cards down on the table,
And all your hearts have turned to...”
– Zox
My suit is dark my clouds are gray And all things around me pass away Well what if I leave Yeah thats what I’ll do I’ll leave Cause 88 keys is all I got to lose That ain’t much you can have those shoes I’m dyin to love dyin to play Dyin to get out of here I’m dyin to live
-“Dyin’ To Live” by Outkast
Joe: Look, Deb...if you need to talk about anything...
Deb: You gonna fix me, Joe? Fix me. I'll listen.
Joe: Deb, what are you doing?
Debra: I just wanted to have a little chat with Warren.
Warren: Oh yeah? Well have a little chat with my gun.
Debra: [into the barrel of Warren's gun] What do you want Warren?
Warren: STOP CALLING ME WARREN. MY NAME ISN'T FUCKING WARREN.
Debra: Well you can't kill me 'cause I'm already dead. And I talked to God, and she says, "Yo, wassup?" and she wants you to lose the gun.
Warren: What? You are psycho. You're a psycho.
Why do I have so much hope in humanity, but none for myself?
Insanity?
As someone has recently brought up, the definitition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result. Now I rather dislike this definition and have some questions for the person who first came up with it. Some of them are as follows:
Do you get out of bed every morning?
If so, do you expect your day to be different from the day before it?
If that is...
L.A.S.E.R. Manifesto by Lupe Fiasco →
“We will not compromise who we are to be accepted by the crowd. We want...”
– Lupe Fiasco
As I sit here and debate making an effort to talk to you again I wonder if you do the same thing. I mean how many people can you be talking to at 2:30 in the morning? Meh.
Why am I thinking about you? It makes no sense we were only friends in passing. I used to love your style and how completely unique you were. You were my first friend who was openly gay. It’s funny, but the first time I ever saw you wearing pink was at a dance last year. You were wearing a pretty pink dress that made you look like a princess (so different from your usual dark style) and...
Cameron: do u know of anybody who did the euro id's?
Me: no sorry
Cameron: i hate u so much it hurts
Me: bugger off
Cameron: ha! ur witty british colloquialism put me in a good mood!
Me: I'm glad...well I have to get to work
side note: I know you were kidding, but I feel hurt and you are in better mood than you were before. That always seems to happen.
Ok so this requires a short explanation. One of the largest issues I have with how my life has progressed has been that I always seem to lose contact with the people who are the closest to me which absolutely kills me and makes me want to not even try to get close to people often times. I’ve been thinking about this a lot and I just kind of wanted to make a list so that I can stop going...
Sad Eyes
If there is one thing I really dislike its how often my eyes are sad. I can’t really explain it, but it is incredibly easy to read people’s eyes and is something I often do to try to find out more about the other person. There is something about eyes that doesn’t allow you to hide things. I don’t know why, but I can feel when my own eyes are sad. I can’t really...
It’s a funny feeling to miss someone so much that it hurts.
“Nobody wanted to dance when I had a lot of time on my hands now I have a lot of...”
– Outkast
“Have You Forgotten” by The Red House...
This is from an interview with Harry Chapin who...
“If you ever needed blood, I would cut myself
Just to bring you enough blood to...”
– “Suicide Love” by Wyclef Jean
“How can I convince you it’s me I don’t like
And not be so...”
– “Reservations” by Wilco
“Warrior’s Anthem” by Wyclef...
“I feel like someday you’re going to have a room that has the choice of...”
– Mi Padre
“The deepest river flows with the least noise.”
– Roman Proverb
Westley: Hear this now: I will always come for you.
Buttercup: But how can you be sure?
Westley: This is true love - you think this happens every day?
“Wounded Heart” from Elegiac Melodies...
“The capturing of whispers is the way to write a song
It’s when you get to...”
– “There Only Was One Choice” by Harry Chapin
Just Be OK
I used to think I’d be okay Time heals all wounds or so They say But I find with each passing day I want more and more to just fade away
It never really changes My hierarchy of pain just rearranges
I used to think I’d be okay And now again I see a way To finally make these demons decay No longer live in this dismay
But the prospect of messing up again is scary So I cannot help but...
“Do you know what we should do for our senior gift? We should buy a giant sign...”
– Derek
Me (discussing a very superficial poet from the 1700s): Wow I thought that our generation was supposed to be the one of guys just being complete tools.
Derek: No it's just it used to be the exception, now it seems to be the majority. I swear if all girls aren't lesbians in 50 years I will be very surprised and impressed with the male gender for shaping up.
I apparently have a thing for reopening old wounds.
Subtle Sadness
Over the years I have become very good at hiding some of my emotions. I think that along with this I have also come to realize that people are not very observant. I can’t really explain why, but I’ve been getting hit with small bouts of sadness lately and to be honest I’ve been crying quite a bit. I have been able to perfect the art of doing so silently and even talking with a...
Drawings That Will Most Likely Never Happen
I’ve been doing a really bad job putting my thoughts down lately and for that I kind of apologize. So I have recently been thinking about two drawings that if I had any artistic ability I would like to attempt to draw. One has been kicking around in my head for a few years now that just keeps getting added onto and the other just came to me the yesterday. The one that I just recently...
